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So, it seems to me that it is 1 in the morning, I have to get up in 5-6 hours, my anime still needs sorting…and I decide it is more useful of me to fix a playlist on my ipod and wander around the internet. Brilliant. O well, I’ve always said that sleep is overrated, with that said, I feel like sleeping less now, 4 hours should do nicely.

Lately life has been moderately cruel. I have to continually remind myself why I have chosen to drag myself through this gravel and dirt. I need money for school, it seems plain enough. I know the school I want to go to as well, even though I haven’t really told anyone. /sigh Work is ever tedious, as it should be, otherwise it would not be called work. Blockbuster agitates me, the people I work with are pseudo friendly, simply because they have to be I assume. I only say this because it would seem that although I attempt to appear as a decent person (from time to time I think I actually am), I do not belong in their group of friends. I was actually not invited to a party, directly, all whilst being ranted at about how awesome it will be. But, to be completely and painfully honest, I wouldn’t have gone, even if I had been invited, I just don’t feel like having to deal with a hang over while at my morning job. Speaking of which, I haven’t been drinking in quite some time, I would prefer to keep it this way. That is unless it will be fun. I’ve never really had fun drinking. Regardless, I can’t seem to care all too much, it just bothers me when I am feeling especially human in a sense, much like today.

My WoW addiction is attempting to grow out of control, I enjoy the game far too much. I actually find myself wishing to play it for large periods of time when I am at work, or times like now. I am working towards getting a computer that is pvp worthy…

On a more upbeat note, I recently got Warriors Orochi for PS2, Castlevania: Dracula X Chronicles for PSP and Megaman ZX Advent for the DS. I haven’t had the time to rightfully explore any of them yet, I hope to do so sometime in the near future. I also got Final Fantasy Tactics: The War of the Lions for PSP and Bleach: The Blade of Fate for the DS, the latter of which I have still to put some time into. So I do have enough to fill my free time with a bit of variety, fortunately.

This seems to be the end for now.

Location: Frozen Waste, AK
Status: /sigh
Noise: Seize the Day - Avenged Sevenfold

/yawn, I don't want to go to work today. Not to entirely much has gone on since my last post. I'm pretty much contented, I suppose. I don't have so much time for anything anymore, what with 2 jobs and another on the horizon. Finally got my license, not that I use it, there's really not any point. Heh, although, my aunt and uncle are moving to England tomorrow and he's leaving his street racing car here ^_^ psyched much? yes.

I watched both Grindhouse movies recently. and you know what? They kinda really sucked. Glad I didn't see them in the theater. One was cool to start because a guy ran over a bunch of chicks, but that ended after like the first 15 minutes. After that it was just female jabbering, idk wtf they were talking about and I opted to play WoW while their hen yabber was going on in the background. That was Deathproof by the way, not so much though, he gets killed in the end, by a bunch of chicks, lame. Planet Terror was better, but not by much.

I got FFT: The War of the Lions for my PSP (which I finally got a battery cover for, so now I'm not attached to the wall all the time) I like it alot, of course, I loved the original, so what did you expect? On the off hand, I was level 65 by Chapter 2, so that makes the game much easier, lol, I just had to get the Dark Knight class right off. Awesome btw, and on an unfortunate note, I need someone to play with so I can get all the Onion gear, I know no one, lolz. Also got a PS1, the fancy small white one, with a screen and all it's attachments, like brand new for 20.00, hellz yea. I love my PS1 games.

Also, got to 70 on my Warcraft toon, I keep running HH in hopes of getting the sweet dps plate helm. No good though, I saw it once and lost 10 - 13. What the fuck is up with that? I got so pissed. Still have some time left though, I'll probably grind it this weekend. Only irate warriors and paladins left running that thing though...we'll see.

I've been watching anime like mad recently, since I got a job at blockbuster. Yesterday I picked up like 9 dvds I think. Awesome. Ranma 1/2, Onegai Teacher ,GTO, R.O.D: The OAV and some other stuff... ^_^

/yawn Life's not all that interesting. O well, I guess it's not supposed to be right now... Suppose I should get rdy for work though, bleh

ps. Hahaha, omg. Really? I don't think I can stop laughing. I might be a geek, but at least I look good. Although I -was- right, lolz! HAHAHA! *fade out*

Tags: anime, dvds, grindhouse, jobs, license, work, wow
Location: Frozen Waste
Status: I want to not go to work today
Noise: Dancing for Rain - Rise Against

they iz takn mi internetz! Not really though. I just got back from my first anime convention though, definitely totally worth it. Tony and I went...zack was supposed to be there, but I never saw him and he didn't call me. Heh, I entered a Smash Bros tournament, but the rules were messed up cause there were some major time constraints since they lost one of the copies of the game. So I ended up getting called out in the first round (which was 4-for-all with 2 stock >_<) and I lost pretty fast, not because of lack of skill, but mostly cause of the level...I hate fourside. Neway, normal tourney rules are 1v1 w/ 5 stock and a 5 minute limit and it's the same for 4-for-all, except the 1v1 part... so, pretty much, it was a losing battle from the start. Fun though, the day was that is. Cute anime girls ^_^ although I can't remember what any of them look like for the life of me...just nice I guess. Also, I saw Roxy's brother Leroy there...didn't say hi to him cause I thought it would be weird...and now I feel like an ass. but what can you do? If i could go back in time, I wouldn't have lost the tournament either XD but o well, next time i guess.

Additionally, Tony and I went to Blockbuster to rent movies. And rent movies we did. We used my Blockbuster Card of Power +7 and rented 7 movies, sine it resets tomorrow ^_^ We got all of Outlaw Star, umm... Princess Mononoke, Howl's Moving Castle, some Burst Angel and Z.O.E I think, I can't remember and don't feel like looking in my backpack that's like 2 feet away from me...and now that I think of how lazy that makes me seem, I want to look, but I won't, just to spite myself. I grabbed some "Fires of Outland" boosters from Blockbuster as well, since I get 15% off, and I pulled "The Sword of a Thousand Truths"! Kick ass, although the play cost is a bit high...

Well, now that I have made a complete geek of myself, here's the ender. There's an anime convention in Seattle next March, and I am pretty sure I am going to go to it. It's a good thing I know about it this far ahead too, cheap tickets, time off from work, the whole enchilada...speaking of which, I got ice cream and have no idea where it is...

So...it's now official. I'm a geek. What of it?

Tags: anime, convention, cute, dvd, geek, sword, warcraft, world of warcraft
Location: Frozen Waste, AK
Status: Happy, what else is there?
Noise: Stab My Back - The All-American Rejects

Covered from head to toe
Cut, burn, scar
Memories embroider my body
This one is for you

Because we have loved
And we have lost
Even if we were together now
We are still miles apart

O please for me,
Don’t hold me in your mind girl
You’ll never be mine girl
Never once and never again

So hold tight now
In this magnificent storm gyre
Because I’ve never been able to hold on
I’ll leave again…and never again

To my dreamscapes
Turned rotten and despoiled
By my nightmares
Of all the things I’ve lost…

Tags: darkness, dream, dreams, losing, lost, love, memories, nightmare, nightmares, pain, poem
Location: Frozen Waste, AK
Status: Nothing
Noise: Unlikely (Stay With Me) - Celldweller

I foresee in the near future something along the lines of me going crazy. Not crazy like Friday night crazy, but receeding into myself crazy. Besides, I was fucking drunk, what the hell else was I supposed to do when someone calls me a bitch? Normally I would've laughed, but of course I'd wanna fight. Shit, it was all downhill from there, who expected anything else? I am a fucking emotional wreck right now and I have fucking no one to talk to. I'm not ready to go back to school, so I am fucking staying here in AK until next Fall, I don't want to stay here, but I don't have the money to leave. Yes, I broke up with my g/f, but it's not like it doesn't hurt me too. All I can do is be a fucking ass so I don't fucking think about it, cause I'll be damned if I am going to break down and cry over something I've done. Not to mention something I can't even post here, or anywhere, because it's not "right" fuck you, you don't know who you are, but you'll probably read this. Get the fuck over it, I'm getting on with my life. Prime fucking dammit, am I so horrible that I deserve all this shit? Not that I need anyone to answer that, because it's happening right now, so apparently i am. Fucking Prime, I want to cut myself, I need a cigarette...mostly so I can burn myself...

Tags: fuck
Location: Frozen Waste, AK
Status: so fucking pissed
Noise: When Angels Fly Away - Cold

I seriously hate this place (Arizona that is), how the hell can people live here? I couldn't even carry a 70 lb box to the post office, kinda makes me want to just throw away all my stuff in it...which really sucks, I've already thrown away so much stuff...it's actually starting to hurt my head. Not to mention the fact that I have no money, I've been working for 3 months constantly and have nothing to show for it. I left for a week for vacation, I don't think I've hardly relaxed at all, and my head still hurts... I wish I had less to worry about...and it probably would've been cheaper to have all of my stuff sent to me, rather than come down here to get it. That damned oil rig better hire me, otherwise I will be fucking broke for a very long time. WTF, I am so pissed. Why does food have to be so expensive? Now I wish I had put off paying Kim just a little longer, I could really use that $200 right about now. Where the hell did my money go... I don't have anything else to say since I'm just in a crappy mood.

Location: Scorched Waste, AZ
Status: I feel like shit
Noise: Level 70 Elite Tauren Chieftain - I Am Murloc

Seriously, almost everyone I went to school with are apparently losers. All the hot girls are now fat, have kids or are so cracked out it doesn't matter. But mostly just any given combination of those 3. Not to mention almost all of them are STUPID now. God damn, what the hell is happening people? Everything looked so great when we were in school and now everyone is turning into a burn out, I mean shit, is life really so hard that you can't get yourself together and find a decent significant other? It just annoys the hell out of me because humans can be so much more, and these people aren't. Sometimes I think we were better off in the middle ages, at least then you had to be decently fit to survive and you couldn't be a burn out for the most part, otherwise you got diseases and died. Damn you medicine, Darwin had it right. We seriously need some natural selection around here, for sure.

Also, 3rd of July fireworks kinda sucked cause I got really pissed off. Mostly cause I am smart. It kinda sucks...alot. I wish I were dumb sometimes. I just couldn't make myself stay at the Lion's Park, there were so many people who were just dumb as hell. So many people that I thought would go somewhere and seem to still be here, in Alaska, doing the same wasteful things they've been doing for years. And they will probably never leave here and go see anything worth seeing beyond a moose's ass (which isn't really worth seeing either, it just paints their picture).

You live once, why waste it here. Go out and see something worth seeing before you die.

Tags: stupid people
Location: Frozen Waste
Status: Why do you guys suck so hard?
Noise: A bird in the BG

...but not really, I just haven't posted very much in the last more than a month, I think. On the other hand, I am the only person who reads this, so I only deprive myself ^_^. A whole lot of stuff has gone on since my last post, which was mildly immature, not that I care all too much though, heh. At any rate, I have been trying to be more organized lately, It should help with all this stress I've been under. Today was my 8th...maybe my 9th straight day working, but to be fair it was of my own doing, it's just not fun -_- . Work is going well though, I get paid this next Friday? I think so, I hope so actually, so I'll have a few bucks for the Bear Paw, I'm thinking I want to get a hand made sword with my monnies, they go for something like $75? Maybe, I'm not so sure. After that I need $1000 for a good laptop and a wireless internet connection, the latter being the easy part (wireless setup that is). Then I will live on WoW...haha, I jest, I couldn't do that, I like my body too much to do that to it. Which also brings up the fact that Zack and I are supposed to be going running tonight, that slacker, he will pay >_< :fist of rage:

I've also been continuing work on my portfolio, I should post some of my art here (with mad water marks so no one can steal my AWESOME work, haha). I've also been continuing work on my books as well as games, although I am trying to get some character art cranked out for the first game, not coming so well though...

So, I used to be subscribed to Play Magazine but am not any more. This has forced me to buy them off the rack which is expensive. Not the point though, the point is that I was reluctant to pick up the last issue when it first came out, but did, and am so glad. They did a mini-article on the Square Enix Party 2007 and OMG, why do I live in America again? The party was FREE to attend and they were giving away tons of free stuff, much of which I hope to buy off eBay, how ironic. But seriously, I knew about alot of the games they showed, it's just that now they are almost close enough to taste...and tasty they will be. The ones I cannot wait for:
-Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII
-Final Fantasy Tactics: The Lion War
-Final Fantasy Tactics A2: The Sealed Grimoire
-Final Fantasy XII: Revenant Wings
-Final Fantasy XII: International - Zodiac Job System
-Final Fantasy IV (for the DS!)
-Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: Ring of Fates
-Final Fantasy XIII (on all 3 levels)

as well as

-The Last Remnant
-It's a Wonderful World
-Dragon Quest IX
-Dragon Quest Monsters: Joker

I kinda had to separate them to show how much FF is coming in the near and not so near future. On top of all this though, 2 more FF games are coming around, Dissidia Final Fantasy and a PSP FF all stars fighting game. Seriously, a fighting game, so awesome!

Location: Frozen Waste
Status: I'm always sleepy...
Noise: The All-American Rejects - Night Drive

For some reason I feel really energetic and happy right now. Although not in my face, otherwise my brothers will think I am weird, but now at the same time I thijk I feel depressed, but it's like it almost doesn't matter... Too bad I don't know what it was, odd feeling though, I think I'll go drain myself on WoW now, so laterz!

ps.
I may be lieing...lying...liing...

Location: I'm still cold, AK
Status: Energetic and don't know why
Noise: Foggy - Come into my Dreams (One of those remixes...)